Drugged

And you are everchanging,
the sting in the wind and the thorn in the thunder,
the essence of lightning 
you are the never-ending sky, 
your secrets die with you,
which means that they never do
you are the sea, you are the ocean,
alternating between shallow ripples and deep tides
and i never know for sure which i’ll be meeting
you are the horizon,
you snatch the sun away and scatter diamond stars
across the midnight velvet
you hang the clouds up and rewind rainbows
the clockwork crux of the universe
putty in your hands
i am putty in your hands
and you are a flame 
and i am a flicker
i exist only when you do not, 
i exist only when you do
your laughter fills up the whole room
and i explode into it
and i am predictable 
and afraid to be an anchor
pulling you down to mundanity 
diazepam
you let me breathe when my lungs seize
and i’ve never seen you without your colours
maybe you’re scared you’ll blind me?
you’ve already left me head spinning heart beating legs trembling hands shaking
what have i got to lose
except 
for
you?